If you can’t love yourself

In the words of RuPaul “If you can’t love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?”

RuPaulI am the kind of girl that doesn’t wear make up, my hair is a total mess and fashion? well…I wear what I feel comfortable in. I generally don’t much care what other people think of the way I look.

But….and here is the caveat. I care about the way I look. And not about any of the above I’ve mentioned.

But the way I see myself – My body weight has fluctuated massively over the past few years due to meds and symptoms,  I am also getting red patches on my skin along with spots and my hair is thinning, I just don’t feel good about myself.

There are times I look in the mirror and I feel sad, I try to avoid looking at myself if I can get away with it. If I happen to catch a glimpse of myself in the works bathroom mirror I find my self esteem taking a downward spiral.

I feel like a dumpy little sack of potatoes alot of the time – like a wonky version of mrs potatoe head

I know these feelings are sometimes a reflection of how I’m feeling when my Crohn’s is on the war path, and I’m determined that this only temporary.

And so I shift my focus onto those things that I can be positive about, like my sparkling personality and passion for writing.

And remind myself that

Beauty is a mindset

be bold

If you have any coping methods you want to share – please drop me a comment

2 Comments Add yours

  1. patuttie says:

    Yes! I totally understand your post- I feel like we are kindred spirits – keep moving fellow Crohn’s warrior. You are beautiful and like Rupaul said, love yourself!!!

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    1. Hey Sista, Thanks for the Pep talk 🙂 Our Crohnie path is a bumpy one but we don’t walk it alone

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