In the words of RuPaul “If you can’t love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?”
I am the kind of girl that doesn’t wear make up, my hair is a total mess and fashion? well…I wear what I feel comfortable in. I generally don’t much care what other people think of the way I look.
But….and here is the caveat. I care about the way I look. And not about any of the above I’ve mentioned.
But the way I see myself – My body weight has fluctuated massively over the past few years due to meds and symptoms, I am also getting red patches on my skin along with spots and my hair is thinning, I just don’t feel good about myself.
There are times I look in the mirror and I feel sad, I try to avoid looking at myself if I can get away with it. If I happen to catch a glimpse of myself in the works bathroom mirror I find my self esteem taking a downward spiral.
I feel like a dumpy little sack of potatoes alot of the time – like a wonky version of mrs potatoe head
I know these feelings are sometimes a reflection of how I’m feeling when my Crohn’s is on the war path, and I’m determined that this only temporary.
And so I shift my focus onto those things that I can be positive about, like my sparkling personality and passion for writing.
And remind myself that
Beauty is a mindset
If you have any coping methods you want to share – please drop me a comment