It’s OK to Feel

You are allowed to feel, I often beat myself up for feeling a certain way and almost keep forgetting that my feelings and behaviour are 2 separate things. While your feelings can impact your behaviour in a big way, I know for me it can be hard to not let one dictate the other. I…

An Open Letter to Myself

Dear Self I know life is tough right now, and that you can’t see an end to this pain that you are in. I know you would do anything to make it stop even suicide. The symptoms and agony you feel will lessen, I know it’s a lifelong chronic illness you’ve got and it’s a…

Not the Same

Yes I smile, And all the while I lie, I’m hurting all the time, And so I cry, I’m the perfect portrait, Of hidden pain, Off loss & gain, I am not the same. Crohn’s disease has definately changed me – and while I wrote this when I was going through a really tough time, …

Theft – The Emotional Side

On the 15th January 2020 someone broke into our home when me and my boyfriend were out. The day had started poorly as my Crohn’s symptoms had been particularly nasty the previous night, lots of vomiting and pain. I had decided I fancied grabbing a Mcdonalds for lunch, not something I normally do but I…