Re-evaluating what matters

Since the end of 2019, I have been revaluating things in my life. Nothing on a drastic scale, but I spent alot of time last year feeling guilty for not visiting certain family members, not buying certain people presents, am I getting the right things. This is because having a chronic illness means that alot…

It’s OK to Feel

You are allowed to feel, I often beat myself up for feeling a certain way and almost keep forgetting that my feelings and behaviour are 2 separate things. While your feelings can impact your behaviour in a big way, I know for me it can be hard to not let one dictate the other. I…

An Open Letter to Myself

Dear Self I know life is tough right now, and that you can’t see an end to this pain that you are in. I know you would do anything to make it stop even suicide. The symptoms and agony you feel will lessen, I know it’s a lifelong chronic illness you’ve got and it’s a…

Not the Same

Yes I smile, And all the while I lie, I’m hurting all the time, And so I cry, I’m the perfect portrait, Of hidden pain, Off loss & gain, I am not the same. Crohn’s disease has definately changed me – and while I wrote this when I was going through a really tough time, …